Down the Rabbit Hole - Holly Madison

Down the Rabbit Hole

By Holly Madison

  • Release Date: 2015-06-23
  • Genre: Biographies & Memoirs
Score: 4.5
From 3,949 Ratings


The real, untold, and unvarnished story of life inside the legendary Playboy Mansion—and the man who holds the key—from the woman who was Hef’s #1 girlfriend and star of The Girls Next Door.

A spontaneous decision at age twenty-one transformed small-town Oregon girl Holly Sue Cullen into Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner’s #1 girlfriend. But like Alice in Wonderland after she plunged down the rabbit hole, what seemed like a fairytale life inside the Playboy Mansion—including A-list celebrity parties and her own #1-rated television show—quickly devolved into an oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies. Losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide.

But instead of ending her life, Holly chose to take charge of it.

In this shockingly candid and surprisingly moving memoir, this thoughtful and introspective woman opens up about life inside the Mansion, the drugs, the sex and the infamous parties, as well as what her relationships with her Girls Next Door co-stars, Bridget and Kendra were really like. Holly talks candidly about a subsequent abusive relationship, her own successful television series, and the hard work of healing, including her turn on Dancing with the Stars. A cautionary tale and a celebration of personal empowerment, Down the Rabbit Hole reminds us of the importance of fighting for our dreams—and finding the life we deserve.


  • Down the rabbit hole

    By susannnaaaaaas
    Loved it & the pictures at the end
  • I actually loved this book!!!

    By HottBoi562
    I wasn’t sure about this book at first. I mean it was a prior playboy model writing a book. Enough said, right!? Wrong! The reason why Holly Madison was the first in line of the “Girlfriend’s of Heff” was because she was smart and she was fast, and witty, relatable, and a fantastic person. She was always great to watch on “The Girls Next Door” with the other 2 ladies. After that show I had always hoped she would do great things. And of course she didn’t disappoint. She became relevant and she became a star all on her own! So she isn’t just another Playboy Model! She is much much more and I am so happy that she wrote this book about the Mansion Days and Beyond! I promise you will not be able to put it down like I was unable to! Thank You Holly for writing this book and can’t wait to read the next one!
  • This story i so cool and awesome I love it

    By Aria sosa
    But what I love more is the name down the rabbit hole that’s why I love so much and the story is so amazing
  • Awesome

    By bird away
  • Good job!

    By cilligirl
    Her honesty is what really makes me connect with the author. It gives me a different view of mansion life.
  • Meh

    By Kbraff88
    This was a lot of “you probably think this happened, but actually this happened, instead.” Covering her tracks and I just felt like I was being manipulated the entire read.
  • I really enjoyed this book

    By Smarieb85
    I had a hard time putting this book down. It is well written and very entertaining.
  • Hooked

    By Mercedesxms
    I found this book while browsing thru B&N and I was hooked ! Haven’t read a book in a while but this book has me back in the swing of things! Sooo JUICY!
  • Snuck up on me actually

    By Lady Brooke
    This was not in my genre really didn't think I would read the whole book. It caught me by suprise. The stuff about Criss unfortunately I have lost respect for the guy.

    By Jeviona98
    Holly I love you so much and finally taking the time to hear (read) your story is something I should have done when you first published it! You’re fantastic inside and out!!